Sunday, June 16, 2013
It's been about two years since I last posted. During my absence, many life changes occurred. Some good, some bad. For starters, I'm officially divorced. To tell you the truth, I'm relieved. I finally feel like I can live and breathe. At 4, it seems late to start fresh, but I'll take it. I've learned a lot from my failed marriage, and it's made me wiser. I'm now living life for me and my boys the way I wanted, the way it should have been. Since my divorce, I've had to reorganize and re-prioritize my life. One of the things I started to do was running. I'm so glad I did. At first, I ran to numb out the pain. I couldn't stop running and crying. I ran everyday for months ranging from 3-6 miles. Then I noticed something about myself. Running helped me rebuild my very low, self esteem. It pulled me out of my shell. I was becoming a little more active, a little more positive, a little more healthier, and a little more happier. I needed those things. I was finally felling happier about my physical self too. I was always 20-25 lbs heavier for my body. I didn't lie my body. I was actually trimming down and finally feeling confident wearing clothes I love such as tank tops. I noticed I was taking better care of myself..my hair, my makeup. I felt bad that I let myself go while married, but happier that I was feeling and looking better than I ever did while married. I also began participating in runs. I've ran through 5Ks, 10Ks, mud runs, novelty runs, and finally, my first half marathon in May. I have my boys participating in some of my runs as well, which btw, they love doing. I was experiencing new things I wouldn't have if I was still married. I now found new interests such as archery, biking, and now kickboxing. I still love to work on my crafts/d-i-y projects and thrifting, but I'm finding that my calendar is full with other fun activities. I've reorganized my life to fit the old Lisa with the new Lisa. And with beautiful family and friends, life is going good. Now, of course, there are still some icky life obstacles I still need to jump over, but with this new strength in me, I'm sure i can do it. There may be some struggles, but I've come this far, I'm not going to give up.